“how the fuck are you making hd gifsets of a movie that’s still in theatres” a book by me
the sequel: “how did you make that gifset that episode aired 4.01 seconds ago”
the trilogy: “what the hell that awards show is airing this very moment where the fuck are all these gifs comings from”
The quadrilogy: how the fuck do you make gifs
yesterday i lost someone very close to me. my cousin Carly Ann. I read somewhere that cousins are your first friends and will be there for you forever. I believe thats true. Carly, along with my other cousins, was one of my first and dearest friends. She took her own life saturday night/early sunday, and i don’t think i will ever get over it. she was a daughter, a mother, a sister, a cousin, and a friend. I will never know why she decided to leave us, and I will always wonder why i never noticed she was so unhappy. Her fiancé said it was a normal night like any other except that she started going through all of her old photos. he woke up sunday morning to find her.
I’ve lost a lot of family members in my lifetime, but none of them left willingly. i was able to accept the loss of my great grand parents, grand parents, aunts and uncles. but i cannot accept this. i can’t wrap my head around why she would leave. she had a baby girl, who is a little over a year old. she was going to get married. she seemed so happy and none of us knew anything was wrong. I’ll never know why she didn’t reach out for help, or what was going through her mind. i just don’t know how to cope with any of this. her mother and father are devastated. her poor fiancé was accused of killing her (until they found the note) and her grandparents are blaming her fiancé for “pushing her” to do this. (which he loved her more than anything and treated her wonderfully)
And i can’t help but feel guilty. if i had just noticed something was wrong, or had talked to her more often, maybe she wouldn’t have done it. i loved her so much and i just hope she knew that. I don’t know how to deal with this. its unlike anything i’ve ever known. and it hurts. it hurts worse than any loss I’ve experienced.
any advice, words of encouragement, kind thought and prayers would be greatly appreciated right now. my whole family is lost.
1. Your skin may never be perfect, and that’s okay.
2. Life is too short not to have the underwear, the coffee, and the haircut you want.
3. Everyone (including your family, your coworkers, and your best friend) will talk about you behind your back, and you’ll talk about them too. It doesn’t mean you don’t love each other.
4. It’s okay to spend money on things that make you happy.
5. Sometimes without fault or reason, relationships deteriorate. It will happen when you’re six, it will happen when you’re sixty. That’s life.”